wat's love exectly?? to me.. it means alot.. means that.. u are willing to give your whole heart into the someone whom u claim u love.. like if there are some unforseen accidents.. u will risk your life for that someone.. and wans that someone to live happier for you.. if there such person left in the world right now???
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i would like to meet thou.. like wat we had seen in dramas.. love.. it means everything to them.. well thats wat i envy whenever i watch those shows.. it feels like there are still hope in the world.. but that is also wat i call unrealistic.. you have to eat dun u??? so.. wats love when your r poor and sobbish??? do u think u can give the life that u wish to give???
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so.. love must always be accompined with money.. well thats the real world out there.. where do roses come from?? from one's pocket u see.. there i know.. why i am not attached.. well they (my friends) said.. for countless times.. my expectations are being over rated..
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well this is what they claimed i expect:
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good background (who doesnt wan someone with good bg?)
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well to do family ( not much of that. jus enough for me to spend i am ok)
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good looking ( well who wans a ugly freak?? nt really wan a good looking one.. i am not pretty either.. jus 'can see' can ald)
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no beng look (well.. i like clean boys.. so.. accept that)
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no smoking (hey!! my astmatic prob is the result of my uncle's smoking habits.. how can u expect me to accept it then??)
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well actually wat i care about is really communication.. i am not very sociable.. i know.. so.. quite hard for me to get to know people.. but once someone knows me.. hmm.. maybe u will have cramps at your cheeks or jaw.. i dunno.. so yeps.. another reason is.. i dun trust guys.. well i used to hate them if someone out there dun know.. i think they are jus dirty.. useless.. pile of shit.. (cos of something that happened).. so..
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it's really hard for me to carry out a convo.. i still stands at a dist now.. i know its a nong nong time ago thing.. but.. it gave me a great impact.. those whom did not exprience that before.. dun give a fast comment.. then.. after that.. i am jus tired of liking someone for sooo long and yet.. it jus i dunno wat.. nth happened.. i did not wish something happened thou.. jus that.. i am tired of liking people..
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would really wan someone to start the liking in me before i like the person back.. well then next reason is.. i have to admit.. i am not petite.. so.. will become buddies rather than u know wat.. last but not least.. confidence.. i am improving on it.. i really am.. but pls find something for me to put in my confidence in.. we women always talk about our figure this and that... but in actual fact.. we jus need a someone to tell us..
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'i dont mind, i like who u are and not wat u are, your inner beauty is the thing that will leave my heart beating till i am old'
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woot!! when can i hear that.. i think i need a alarm clock right now.. with all these.. i always tell the folks around me.. you all wan get married go get married.. wan to give birth go ahead.. if there is anytime to spare.. jus visit me will do!!! wahahhaa!! i guess i will be a chu nu jus like my horoscope.. lolx.. the person i wish for only happen in my dreams.. but maybe..
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someday.. the liking jus strikes.. and i fell for someone way below my expection??? but i am setting my expection high so that i will not fall for people easily.. i dun wish to get hurt again...
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so as a summery: (reason why i will be a virgo)
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high expection
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duckling yearning for prince
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not sociable
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lack of trust in opp sex
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tired of liking someone
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*wanna add more??*
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so.. result: come and visit me when you are free..
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i am a 21th century woman.. i dun depend on man!!!
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okey.. enuff of my rantings.. next blog pls..